The past couple of months has been an extremely stressful time. It has been full of changes for me, some positive and some well... I am not sure if negative is the right word, but definitely different and challenging to what I had expected or predicted. My other half is living near me now so 5 out of 7 days is spent going to see him and I either have to get public transport to get there or hitch a ride with my dad (which means getting up at 6 a.m.)... with the M.E. this is not the best of situations really... but I am 'coping' and I try to take it easy on the two days that I have 'off'.

It's so strange to spend a lot of time with someone who is not your family member. It reminds me a bit of university.

My relationship with my parents has basically disintegrated... I am only liked as long as I suck up and please them, which involves doing EXACTLY what they want. It has gotten to the point where I cannot wait to leave, which saddens me because I didn't want things to be this way. I wanted to leave on a good note and for them to be happy with the life I had chosen for myself. I am frequently shouted at and belittled... it's beginning to wear a bit thin as I have always done my best to pull my weight in the house in every way that I can. Unfortunately money is power and as long as I don't have a wonderful career and am not contributing cash to the house... my best will never be good enough.