Tomorrow I go to lunch with my friend... that should be cool and hopefully will take my mind off of the many things that are bothering me. I wish that I could even say that they were little things that were bothering me, but unfortunately they are not. I never realised how hard it is to have a relationship with someone from another country; there seems to be all this bureaucratical red tape to wade through. At times I just sit there in a daze and wonder how on earth I got myself into this 'mess'. Then again, that's life and it's very unlikely that I would have met a 'British' guy who I actually liked enough to want to be with.

I am tinkering with the idea of settling in Switzerland... a bit cold in winter though. I like the idea of living in a warm place in the winter and a nice summery place - like Switzerland or the UK - in the summer.